| Z...z...Z....where's my bottle? |
[26 Feb 2005|02:43am] |
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Yea soooo got hella fucked up at ali's house tonight lol...it was sooo amazing....and her friends that i met are sooo totally awesome lol...thier soooo hilarious...i havent had fun like that in awhile....i just felt bad because i wanted to talk to Jamie all day and he was tired but he said i could call cuz he'd stay up for awhile just for me so i called him and then annettes like "oh come outside and talk" and i had to let him goooo.....:( i felt sooooooo bad....awwww my baby i love him so much....neways...im sleepy...another free day tommorrow!!
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| STOKED!!!! |
[14 Feb 2005|11:17pm] |
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ok soo....today was Valentine's Day...and OMG it was the best ever!!!!!....i couldnt have asked for a better last Valentine's Day in high school than today!!.....omg so i made the cd for Jesse and i gave it to him and he seemed pretty stoked and then....out of the fuckin blue he asked me to go to the movies!!!!....omg theres hope yet!!!!....im sooo freakin happy its like omg i dont kno wat to do with myself!!!....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol sorry had to let that out...theres still more AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! lol i think im done...omg i hope we do go to the movies lol but omg!!!! i dont kno how to act or wat to do!!! lol oh lord more problems!!! well ill cross that bridge when it actually comes lol
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| Sleepy.... |
[07 Feb 2005|08:00pm] |
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Ok...well im one of the only people going to skool tommorrow...im gonna be stuck in first hour (AP ENG) for threee fuckin hours!!....but its sacrifices of my time i have to make to have perfect attendance.....ok so if any one has any advice for me but....how do u ask a guy ur not sure likes you to prom???....or in that case....out period....im such a wimp :(.....i guess if i was skinner and prettier i would be more courageous but im not so i have to deal...grrrr i cant wait to graduate....theres so much frustration....hopefully when i go to college there will be more openminded people...i will miss u all but ill visit when i can....hopefully i come back with some balls...
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[24 Jan 2005|10:36pm] |
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Im gonna make this short cuz im tired....ok so u know how i told u a little group of us and kevin :) went to the original house of pancakes after drama competiton and that now he talks to me a lot?...lol well kevin asked me too go again!!! aHHHHH....well yes still in a group, but in the same small group!!...not adding anyone like...Vera or julia...i wonder if kevin and vera are still hooking up??.....
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| Awesome week and weekend..... |
[23 Jan 2005|09:51pm] |
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RECAP....K well wendsday was the Drama competition...blah blah...we got some awards but didnt make it to states..oh well we still have mucho fun....and then afterward...leighann, kevin, janie, bryan and i went to the original house of pancakes....omg we had soo much fun...we were laughing sooo hard i almost peed my pants...between the "i dont eat a lot" and the french toast it was a hoot...and omg i got to sit next to kevin...kevin is such a hottie and i liked him before i liked jesse....before wends we knew each other cuz we have math together and we'd say weak hellos but now he always says hi and bye and on friday he gave me a hug!!!....oh yea ok on friday we went to see the AMT's musical showcase...watching them made me miss my days in AMT..im definetly gonna do it again in college...ok neways...one of my fav songs from the Phantom of the Opera was sung by this sophomore and she was awesome!!....she sounded like the next charlotte church!!...im her biggest fan now...when i see her in skool im gonna ask for her autograph...ok so friday after the show we went to Tony Roma's in miami lakes and yes...i met my future husband...OMG can u say fuckin hott...his name was robert and hes mad smart...how do i kno u ask?...well he overheard us talking bout SAT's and he said he got a 13 something and hes gonna take em again...omg so that also means hes a senior...he was to die for....yesterday i didnt do nething though...i missed david he was at parties...we didnt even hang out this weekend *tear falls down her cheek* oh well....i mean i just wanna spend as much time as i can with him before college....ahhh welp thats all...
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| Headache.. |
[18 Jan 2005|10:10pm] |
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Ahhh my mom let me smell this lotin and it was soo frikin strong that now i have a headache....grr....ok so Jesse is s very mixed person....friday he was all happy and excited to see me and today he looked like he couldnt care less...wtf???....grrrr....i hate the fact that i like him so much...and omg martin was pissing me off yesterday...he couldnt understand the fact that i like him but it doesnt even matter because he doesnt like me...grr...boys are sooo flippin stressful...they stress me out!!!!.....tommorrows the drama competition...wish me luck!!!..
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| Bored.... |
[16 Jan 2005|03:16pm] |
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Ok so lets recap....a few topics to go over...number 1...Jesse...ok so friday i saw him over by the condiment table so i decided to go over...he went out of his way to hug me for 3 seconds and he had a tray in his hand (it was a tight hug)....but then he said i got a new cell phone and he showed it to me and he didnt give me his number or ask for mine!!...so mixed signals im confused and grr....number 2....saturday night melissy, david, carlisha and i went to this awesome italian restaurant named Buca's...we ate soo much and then we went to coldstones which by the way is my new favorite icecream place...omg birthday cake remix is soooo orgasmic!!!....then we just drove around and listened to music which wasnt that bad.....number 3...im soooo flippin bored out of my mind i dont kno wat to do with myself!!!....grrr im done...
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[11 Jan 2005|05:55pm] |
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Ahhh i hate skool sooo much....i can't wait for it to be over...im soo sick of it....i wish it was still winter break...i had so much fun in New York...i didn't wanna leave...everything about there is so much better than here.....soo i though jesse was gonna just ignore me but he actually said hi to me before i said hi to him so i dunno wats goin on there....and i need to get the last of my stupid applications in...omg when im done im gonna praise god....its sooooo time consuming....i can't wait for the three day weekend....i hope my friends and i do something....
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| Titillated!! |
[10 Dec 2004|04:14pm] |
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AHHHH....i finally said more than hi to Jesse today....hes soooo hott...i really dont care if hes a sophomore hes just soo sweet....(i hope hes not reading this)....he wrote me back a note and i was sooo excited...in the end he wrote "so yea we should talk more often"....ahhh i hope theres potential...neways im goin out tonight to celebrate davids bday AGAIN and FINALLY....omg its been forever to finally go out to where we wanted to....so since im not completely ready im gonna go do that and ill write more later....
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| rgatqfq |
[25 Nov 2004|02:54pm] |
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I'm soooo full i ate sooo much lol....now im even fatter than i once was before....its sad its just the three of us for thanksiving but its ok....im still really sick..i was sick last night too hanging out with Lizzie im better now but still sick....omg i was like "i cant breathe" at dinner last night and david a suck kissed my nose...lol it was sooo cute...ahhh i wonder what jesse thought of my note...i hope peine gave it to him!!!!....grrr im sooo nervous...ok im kool....well Happy Turkey Day to all my friends...love you guys and be thankful!!....
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| Again..sleepy... |
[23 Nov 2004|08:19pm] |
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Well i made a total fool of myself.....he was right there...Sam was ready to introduce us and i ran away waving to him from afar...he probably didnt even get a good look at me...(Jesse)...grr i really wanna jus like talk to him and im too scared and its pathetic because hes a sophomore and im a senior...oh well i guess we'll try again later...hes sooo hott....ok neways...tommorrow im chilling with lizzie...shoot i didnt even ask yet....oh well im sure my parents will say yes....grrr honestly now is when im deep sea diving in applications and im gonna drown soon....i need to get to the surface...oh well theres nuthin else for me to write...comp is finally normal like everyone elses :)
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| It's sad..... |
[22 Nov 2004|08:09pm] |
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If there is one person you can't stop thinking about,
post this same exact sentence in your journal.....
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| Yup... |
[18 Nov 2004|10:47pm] |
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Im sooo sleepy right now so my entry wont be long....today wasnt that bad i was sleepy all day long just like i am now....after skool today i saw jesse sitting with sam.....lol hes soooo cute....oh well we'll see how that works out....i think im going to send my next 3 apps out on saturday...grrr ms. phelps and her lil "fill out this form so i can write u a recommendation" crap is driving me nuts....she should write on her own convictions not by what we tell her....its pretty weird how jess o'byrne and i practically applied to the same places...its so sick lol....we could be roommates!!....well my eyes are drooopin so im gonna call my best and hit the sack....
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| Long time now... |
[17 Nov 2004|09:29pm] |
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Wow...i havent written in over 2 months!!!...this is insane....well the last thing that happened before i stopped writing was the incubus concert....omg orgasmic!!....i love that man...yes Brandon Boyd aka my lover....and the new bassist Ben is soooo flippin hott too and sooo koool i mean he was the shit lol....and of course Jose had a bombass solo on the drums....and DJ Kilmore was awesome with the sound effects and mixing the songs....and Mike was awesome on guitar....i spent over a 100 dollars that night on Incubus stuff....one of the best nights of my life...grrrr omg there are so many more college apps i have to fill out im like drowning....i wish my comp would work so i could apply online :/....i took my senior pics on sat...and i got my previews today...despite what my mother says i think i look horrible...but the fact that im ugly as it is wouldnt help me in the pictures no matter how much they glamour them up...i hate being ugly..it really sucs....ahhh so hopefully peine is gonna hook me up with her friend "jesse"....hes really cute lol....i doubt he'll like me though....we might have a lot in common but i dunno he might not think im his type...grrr lol...oh well....im gonna finish my hw so i can go to sleep...
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[26 Sep 2004|12:53pm] |
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Ok...there was a fuckin hurricane...the house is dark...theres nuthin to do...everyone should be bored....can u tell me why when im tryin to sleep at 11 people are calling me!!....dont u people have lives??...every time i start to dose off my phone rings...wether it be the house or my cell....even my friend in Portland called me to see how i made it though the hurricane and its 3 hours earlier there!!....dont people kno wat "sleep" is??...JEEZ!.....well i can't wait till skool monday cuz then i can see my new crush "Kevin"....despite im bein a junior...i like him a lot hes jus sooo kool and nice to mee...now can u tell me which guys are nice to me?....ahhh and then after monday comes tues!!!....woooo incubus!!!.....ok im not leavin no later than 3 for davids info....i wanna be one of the first people to see my husband and his band :)....i feel like a teenybopper but i love them sooo much not jus cuz thier hott...i love everything about them from thier music to their personalities and yes to their hotnesss.....mmmm im in a good mood now....*grumble* tummy calls...need food.
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| Alrighty..... |
[19 Sep 2004|10:42pm] |
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So last night with shanese and chantel was fun at gameworks....we didnt meet any guys though cuz we got there soo late....if u wanna meet guys u gotta be there at like 6....oh well we still have a while before prom....my mission is to find a prom date....hopefully i succeed...grrrr no more skool....the only thing exciting right now is that in 9 days is the.....INCUBUS CONCERT!!!!....ahhh im soooo excited...i can see it down...BB's sweat drippin and his shirt off...mmmm...what a sexy bitch lol....right now im tired though....so im gonna go...all in all im feeling alright....
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| Feelin Weird........ |
[17 Sep 2004|09:18pm] |
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hmmm so life is sorta hectic right now...with applications....and senior year....and just life-altering choices....i dunno....ok everyone knows i love boys and i do love boys...i mean im absolutely boycrazy...but lately ive been talkin to this girl...shes really awesome...and i dunno....im startin to wonder if im bi?...but u kno wat i dont think i am...im the type of person thats always lookin for love....always fallin in love...and always getting hurt....i think im just lookin for anybody to love me...cuz i mean who would...im fat, ugly need i go on?....she makes me feel good and special and i love her but....i want a man...a man that will do the same....im not bi?....i just want love...and since im not really loveable...i guess ill take it from anyone...i dunno i just wanna be loved....
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| Sicky....am i coming down with something? |
[27 Aug 2004|06:40pm] |
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ahhh soo lets see....my boyfriend cheated on me....skool is a bitch.....i havent taken my senior pictures yet....i might be starting a cycle of migraines....theres drugs in my blood and who knows wat else....ok so at least martin finally told me he loves me...i love him tooo so much i wish we lived closer...hes perfect for me...im on such a quest for the perfect guy...i doubt ill ever find one...i just wanna be loved....i cant wait to graduate...i hope i get into nyu early decision...although im not sure if id rather do early decision to Sarah Lawrence....ahhhh so many decisions....ill write more later....
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| Headache!! |
[15 Aug 2004|02:31pm] |
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Yes....the day has come...one more free day until SKOOL!!!..AHHHH....everyone run for cover....wait nope u cant hide from the inevitable...tommorrow skool starts for many many kids....for the kids in my grade....life starts...YES life....for the next couple of months along with skool we will be applying to college, retaking SAT's and trying to keep our sanity....Lord pray for us all....skool sux i didnt make it up....yes and now i have to finish my dreaded AP summer work...wtf who gets summer work....when i mention it to my friends out of state thier like...huh thats stupid...well yes outside friends it is...oh god i need medication its killing me....
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[10 Aug 2004|11:39pm] |
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ahhh so yes im home...this summer was so fuckin awesome i met the nicest people i probably ever will in my life...great experience before college...neways now i have to do lovely work for ap eng and ap gov....yay procrastination!!!....i need my bf where the fuck is he hes grounded from the phone and hes not even online...grrr i love him but grrr....i dunno tommorrow im chillin with joey and other peeps at Barnes and Nobles...hopefully its fun lol...ahh im gonna stop nuthin more to say....
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